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the world sucks and everyone sucks): there's no one in the world that can be trusted people, even me! YES I KNOW YOU HATE ME

GO AWAY EVERYONE
staring at the computer screen just makes me sadder

BYE WORLD I'M OFF TO DISAPPEAR FOREVER
well, until everything goes well again.

i wish i never existed, so i shall come up with the best plan to die the most painlessly.
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haha mj too bad if it's not as long as yours, i still did the same thing you did k!
wahaha this is super funny:D

omg so late liao):
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i don't know what fiona sees in gangsters/ahkuas/gays! haha:D she says she likes guys with pierced ears, and most of them are gangsters/ahkuas/gays, or if not, paikias. haha even if not all of them are, at least 99.99999percent of pierced ears guys are from one of the catergory listed above.

cute geeks are like better than those guys who act cool (the kind that fiona likes) ok. i mean, those who act cool are normally despo freaks. because, only those who care to act cool, e.g never fails to spike up hair when going out and making their hair look like rubbish dump are concious of their looks, and they only do it to look cool right? guess why. to attract more girls la! obvious right.

and those are the type who actually check girls out, like those sicko guys fiona talks about. so anyway, piercing ears guys are either act cool guys or paikias. act cool guys think they're super shuai, and flirts around all the time. and paikias will just go and get a tattoo and spoil their skin, making them look like gangsters. and some of them are gangsters, oh and piakias will just rape you someday. beware fiona! hahaha

oh my defination of cute geeks, aren't those type you find at hci ok, you know those type who tuck in their shirts and are super ugly, only go libraries, plus only care about their research work and nothing else. i am so not talking about those kind of guys ok. haha no one in their right mind would like those guys! i'm talking about those guys who are shuai and/or cute, even with specs on, and don't act cool. not really geeks, but best thing about them's that they don't flirt or check girls out all the time. and they're sweet and nice and everything you know. like when they like a girl, they don't think about another girl.

ok nevermind. hahaha my point's just that guys with pierced ears are ew. i'm sure many people out there agree with me!

and i don't like guys with mushroom hairstyles ok. but some of them are ok la, cause it just depends on their faces.

tomorrow's saturday again, oh die, my cello teacher's gna make me work on vibrato again. he keeps saying i play vibrato like it's my duty and it's super pain. maybe it's my expression. hahahaha:D

thanks for everything(:
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crap, i've got this stupid sorethroat, and i'm like coughing away and my throat hurts like nothing else): why is everyone getting sick at this period of time!

oh and i realised, it's rather fun to be early at my cello teacher's house! haha his house is so cute can, ok what i mean is, there's many cute stuff at his house:D today when i went there like 20mins early, i was like stoning on his sofa till 3 haha. but not really stoning, because! he has like 3 birds, 1 cat, a fish tank which oh i don't know, disappeared to godknowswhere, and besides, there's like two dolphins sitting beside me on each side:D haha and one's a marshmallow cushion! super cute, i was like squashing it the whole time. but the cat is so lazy, it keeps sleeping): so sad can, it should like come to play with me!

those birds in the cages are rather amusing, they take turns to eat and the actually like, climb around you know, and by the way they aren't very quiet. oh yes and i found out rather amusing things from mr chan today haha.

bah assessments were like, sooooo): i played those high notes out, so saddening can, normally when i practise they're in tune): last desk's waiting for me):

jenna wanted me to post about my results, so yup, i got two seconds, which is like): bah so crappy. i'm wondering if i should change to that new china coach, everyone's changing to her. so if i want to i better be quick. but i'll feel quite bad:/

hurrah no piano lesson this week! yay yay:D hope i can make use of that free day to shop! go shopping:D but i think my mum won't let me. stupiddddd

my family's not leaving me alone in singapore to stone anymore! haha cause' my parents wanted to go to some lousy place in malaysia that's only got a beach and a resort-.- stupid. i didn't want to go cause' if i go i'll just go there to like what, waste my holiday away stoning and growing fat. it's just eating, then sleeping, then watching tv, then going to the beach and get myself darker, which i don't want to! so my parents wanted to bring joanne along, and shaun gets to go to some camp which i think's quite fun. but again i didn't want to go for that camp hhaha if not i'll be stuck with those kiddies:D

but now they're all not going overseas! hopefully sarah gets to sleepover(:

oh yes i missed the 6a gathering): oh well, nevermind.

just tell it all to me can't you,
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OMG DOOMSDAY TMR I'M GOING TO DIE A HORRIBLE DEATHHHHHH

and it's the last day of learning point tmr! sobsobsob i'm going to miss everyone! chuyi): anyway the good thing is that there's no jiang for the whole holiday! YESSSSSS:D

the zamboni spoiled! omg how to compete! of all times must spoil at this time omg omg): and the ice was like so watery, if you fall you slideeeee and all your clothings get super wet. omg i'm so nervous. i think i'm going to have a nervous breakdown or a heartattack or whatever.

i think i'm a bit crazy, one moment i'm super happy the other moment i'm sad haha. oh and anyway why do everyone always stereotype NY and HCI as super chinesesy schools, it's not really true you know:D haha.

i don't know what to blog about, cause' now all that is in my mind is the freaking competition, assessments, and..laaaa nevermind

BYEBYE:D
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bye string ensemble, i have to go choir): or chinese orchestra or whatever that accepts me so i can go for syf next year. i'm like so dead, i can't pass the assessment): so sad right. so i will get kicked out of string ensemble and i have to try out some other cca that'll put me into their syf team. the most i just have to go green club like what fiona suggested. hahaha.

see, firstly i have nothing to play. secondly my standard is so lousy and i will play everything out of tune (esp when i'm nervous and shivering) and mr sze will say my playing is disgustingly horrible. thirdly i don't think mr chan's going to tell me what's suitable for me to play. he'll just go "oh whatever you feel like playing". he does that everytime anyway. so the conclusion is that i'll have to say goodbye to strings! saddening right):

anyway, i love michelle kwan! omg omg she rocks can, her spiral is so so so high, it doesn't look like a spiral, it's more like a split sideways. and she's so graceful! watch her video here:D i so love her routine!

and i love shizuka arakawa even more hahaha. she's graceful too, and as flexible as well. her spins are like, superbly beautiful. and when i say beautiful it so is lovely! esp her last spin, i forgot where there was a laidback, but the laidback's my favourite spin:D i can't remember whether it was her or michelle kwan that did the laidback. anyway shizuka arakawa's spins are really graceful, and i love the beaumont spin too! haha watch her video here.

omg just watched this and it's so lovely, the whole scene is dramatic and grand, the music is beautiful, the routine is beautiful, everything is so so lovely. it's a pairs routine, you have to watch it, i've never seen such a beautiful performance before:D click here!

i just realised this post is full of crap, but i still think that i will fail the assessment, blah.


god it's so late, i'm a bit slow haha i didn't notice:D

bah ice time is so tiring, you can't even stop to talk, you have to keep practising and practising and they'll play your music so you have to practise again. all because you have to pay for it. omg i'm not joining lousy competitions again. if not because i get CCA points like i would even care:D haha.

but i'm joining nationals next year! if i pass freestyle that is. guess why:D i want the nationals jacket! haha you get it for free and its like so warm&woolly&comfy so why not? haha its so beautiful too, assuming it's as nice as this year's. jenna give me your jacketttt omg i'm so in love with it. ohoh and you get even more CCA points for joining nationals! whoo i love nationals!

whoosh i'm not feeling as sad as i was a few days ago anymore! last week of learning point this week): hope everyone goes, blah why am i saying that, not like i love everyone in my class. i shall change the sentence to i hope i get to see the people in sarah's class esp chuyi! bye chuyi i'll miss you! i won't miss you justin and qiyang and watson and whoever hahaha. even though they're so comical:D

i hope i can join EIE3 next year! stupid star class, there's this girl there that doesn't like me anyway, she's so... bimbo haha:D and why do girls like to put on makeup so young? like eyeshadow? ew can, bimbo haha.

i've nothing else to blog here anymore, nowadays i'm not sad so there's nothing to vent my anger about! goodnight world:D